Yesterdays drama.

For once I seem to actually have something to complain about.

Yesterday I woke up to a peculiar message on my facebook account effectively claiming my boyfriend of 5 yrs to be chasing after some blokes girlfriend.

First thing in the morning after a terrible nights sleep is NOT the best time to piss me off, especially when I am about to go to work.
As any person with a heartbeat would, I went absolutely mental about the message and confronted a very half asleep Rob, who denied the claim completely.

Work came and went, so I came back home to another message from this psycho trying to convince me that Rob is the biggest sex crazed fiend in the world and that it wasn't just a case of harassing his girlfriend on facebook, he was apparently doing this to several other women.
These other women being solely in his psychotic head.

Anyone who actually knows my boyfriend, knows that he bends over backwards for me, and knows that he is an honest, decent and very loyal guy.

A point to note, is that this bloke hadn't added me or Rob, has never met either of us, and yet felt the need to judge my boyfriend without ever meeting him, and without having a shred of evidence other than his paranoia over Rob commenting on the girlfriends facebook account 3 or 4 times in the last 2 months and the girlfriend even inviting Rob to her birthday event.

Call me crazy, but if you believe someone is harassing you, you don't then go and invite them to a fucking birthday celebration.

Messages went back and forth between myself and this idiot, with me getting more and more pissed off at him trying to go and wreck a relationship for no reason whatsoever.
He also made a huge effort of trying to convince me that his girlfriend was Rob's type as in his words 'she is beautiful and likes listening to metal'.

Obviously despite never meeting Rob, he felt he was in a perfect position to try and convince me what makes the perfect type of women for my boyfriend.
After seeing photos of this girl, beautiful is as far away from the truth as possible.
In fact she reminds me of this:
Actually, scene wolf is too good for that skank.

He also didn't appreciate me telling him that if she was being harassed, then she would be a big girl and go and click that nice little unfriend button, rather than bitch and whine and get her 'big bad boyfriend' to go and harass me instead.

The worst part of all of this, was that he made me doubt my boyfriend first thing yesterday morning. By the afternoon, I realised that he is an overbearing paranoid aggressive bastard who is in dire need of therapy.

Rob sadly has to work with this stupid bitch, which really does annoy me.
I have no idea if she was the one who claimed she was being harassed, or if her boyfriend imagined it, but I want her as far away from him as possible.

All I know, is that her and her boyfriend deserve each other.

Cannot be bothered.

I have gotten to a stage where I really cannot be bothered with anything anymore.
Maintaining an online life seems too much effort these days, yet I feel the same about an offline life.
I still spend hours sitting idly on facebook as I have nothing better to do with my life and that is just so damn depressing, knowing there s nothing I feel worth wasting my time on instead.

Work has settled down I suppose, my store now has the original manager back running the place and it is completely different to what I have previously experienced there.

Last week I managed to get a pair of beaaaautiful shiny black patent Dr Martens in Cardiff (they actually have an official store there now) and have been alerted that there will be bright green ones being sold again in the summer. That made me rather happy.

I have spent this week with my family which was lovely. I haven't had a week off work since the beginning of September for my birthday, so it was well overdue.
The problem with going home is that I always hate leaving, it never does get any easier to leave my family behind while knowing that it is where I belong.

Hopefully one day soon I will be able to get out of this hell hole and back to Wales.

Argh.

I am still very much fed up of this year.
All the stress, headaches and generic hopelessness wasn't enough apparently, so a kidney infection and mass conflict gets thrown in as well.

In a rather awkward situation work wise at the moment as there have been arguments with someone I work with.
Someone who should be treating me as an equal, instead treats me like a 2 year old, always has something to criticise me about and generally making me feel like crap.
It is just getting worse as it goes on and there is NOTHING that can be done about it.

Wish I hadn't bothered transferring over here, it is just making me ill and doesn't seem to be worth it.
I was a fraction away from walking out of there for good yesterday morning as I just cannot take it anymore.

Sigh.

Well so far this year has not been the way I had hoped.

Have majorly screwed up one aspect of my life by not knowing when to keep my mouth shut, which will now make life very awkward/painful.
I really need to learn to think before I open my mouth, fricking idiot.

Through all my crappy eating I have managed to put on a fair bit of weight, jeans now digging in and cutting off circulation, dare I bend over at all in these.....

& I seem to have been in a rather bad mood due to the above, not that I am a normally nice person, but I am incredibly snappy now and stressed.

Woo.

Oh and to annoy me further, my outfit choice for today has been scuppered as my pretty new tights had a hole in the toe fresh out of the packaging, and the pattern stops just above my knee.
Not useful when I had planned to wear black high waisted shorts with them.


ARGHHHHHHHH.

2012 anyone?

Happy late new year and all that jazz.

I spent my new years lying on a sofa with my favourite pink blanket and watched get him to the greek with the boyfriend and his little brother.
Nice, effective, no effort required.

After hearing that a very loved member of the family was getting put down (no we were not supporting Dignitas or anything...) Poppy, a cat that has been around for 19 years and was me if I were a cat.

We were all devastated by her death :(

New years eve also marked the 5th anniversary of my Grandpa dying as well, so I tend to avoid trying to celebrate as it seems rather disrespectful.

New years night was a ridiculous amount of fun though. I met up with my most favourite person from my time working at Cabot Circus, we (and our blokes) went to a rather nice restaurant which is marketed as 'Pan Asian' AKA buffet with lots of different noms & a chocolate fountain at the very end.
Turns out, there is an awful lot of food I can consume in 2 hours!

That actually was a good start to my new years resolution (no, not posting more...that would just be a sick joke) as I am intending to make an effort to see her at least once a month to catch up & get rather drunk.

Despite the overindulging last night, I still managed to get up vaguely early and drag people shopping >:) so more clothes I don't need and have no room in the wardrobe for then!

If I can be bothered, I may be nice and take some photos tomorrow, but it is rather unlikely for me to post two days running!

Holidays and my latest lame excuses for not posting.

Well I hope of any of you that bother reading had a very enjoyable Christmas time.

^ Now that is out of the way.....
I have been very damn busy with all of those last minute shoppers and crazed bargain hunters recently, not much of a surprise seeing as I work in retail.

Very happy to say that we managed to make it back to Wales to have a real Christmas with my family. We shall ignore the fact that my long-suffering boyfriend had to drive us back at 10pm Christmas night so he could go into work the following morning.

It was a rather lovely day, filled with cackling that other people have to do the washing up after the obligatory xmas lunch, presents, explaining to my smallest sister that I was not eating a regular duck, nice ducks don't make it to the dinner table and its only those nasty vicious ducks that go and bite people end up being eaten by me, some really awful photos, PUSH FOR ICE (a longstanding joke that makes fun of my older sister) and then off to a more civilised dinner with my Dad & that side of the family.

Most likely not making much sense right now, but as usual I have had a rather stressful day and I now feel like I am dying, so I cannot think straight to save my life.

The chipmunks have managed to re-align their sleeping habits, so that we are not rudely awakened at 2am.
This makes for a happy Zilla, as it did get a bit tedious having to sleep on the sofa!

Other than the usual festive crap, yesterday was Rob's 21st birthday & our 5 year anniversary.
We ended up down the local pub. How romantic.
Luckily, a very amazingly good friend of mine I used to work with back in the Cabot days mentioned meeting up for a meal and catching up, so Saturday night I get to have a proper meal and amazing company :)

I can't be bothered to type anymore, not that I have anything interesting left in my life to talk about anyway.

Happy happy happy!

It seems I have managed to find this weird inner happiness thing recently.
Not sure where that came from but anyway!

Blah blah blah I haven't updated in ages, the reason for that is I have been busy, with work, with the BEAUTIFUL chipmunks my amazing boyfriend bought me for Christmas (even if the little buggers do wake up in the middle of the night and keep us awake) and with generic Christmas shopping.


Look at me! I am a cuuuuute chipmunk NOM NOM NOM!


Work is going rather well now, I think it was just a case of needing to wait it out and riding with it. There were a few teething issues to start with but I think it has all settled down nicely now.
It also helps that the management in my store won the lovely new deluxe GHD sets last week as a company incentive & I only just found out (and received mine) today!



I mean? who wouldn't be gloriously happy with that?

The Christmas music hasn't driving me mad yet, but that may have been due to not having music for almost 2 weeks due to technical issues and almost going mad from the silence!

Aside from going home to see my family for ages, life seems to be going well.
Reconnecting with a very good friend that somehow managed to get away is also helping with the positivity :)

<3