that you could delete people in real life?
That is what I am currently wanting to do with one or two people I know.
One of these people I have the misfortune of seeing on an almost daily basis, and there is nothing more I want in life right now than for her to disappear forever.
I was debating the whole deleting of number, deleting of facebook but unfortunately that wouldn't even be enough.
After the tirade of grief via text this morning, I really am sick to death of her.
I may just quit my job and never leave the house again, may be easier.
For someone to make me so permanently miserable is actually quite impressive. However I just deleted her bitchy little message this morning and thought that would be enough to stop my good mood I woke up with from disappearing....
But instead today has to be ruined.
BITCH!
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
Wednesday, 4 May 2011
Clothes clothes and more clothes.
In the last week or so I have managed to spend well over £100 on clothes, more likely closer to the £200 mark but I can't give an accurate number right now.
I seem to have developed a shopping problem!
Until now I have been rather sensible and just squirreled money away into various savings accounts, but all of a sudden I just decided I can't be bothered. If I want something, I am just going to buy it and not worry. I won't be able to do it for long as hopefully sometime soon we will be looking to move into a place of our own, but until then, why not enjoy myself?
Not going to go into everything I have purchased as I would be here all night, but memorable mentions go to:
A beautiful pair of wide leg trousers, black with a cream and coral small flower print, very 70's (I think, not really with all this retro stuff!)
2 new maxi dresses, typically as with the trousers I am unable to find photos online, so if I can ever be bothered I will take photos myself.
& other various goodies I am waiting the arrival of!
Other recent news included me deciding was bored of my extremely boring shade of brown and going red instead (a week and a half on I am still dying everything pink when I wash my hair) and the usual drama at work.
I am in dire need of a holiday and a visit to the gym right now to run my rage off!
I seem to have developed a shopping problem!
Until now I have been rather sensible and just squirreled money away into various savings accounts, but all of a sudden I just decided I can't be bothered. If I want something, I am just going to buy it and not worry. I won't be able to do it for long as hopefully sometime soon we will be looking to move into a place of our own, but until then, why not enjoy myself?
Not going to go into everything I have purchased as I would be here all night, but memorable mentions go to:
A beautiful pair of wide leg trousers, black with a cream and coral small flower print, very 70's (I think, not really with all this retro stuff!)
2 new maxi dresses, typically as with the trousers I am unable to find photos online, so if I can ever be bothered I will take photos myself.
& other various goodies I am waiting the arrival of!
Other recent news included me deciding was bored of my extremely boring shade of brown and going red instead (a week and a half on I am still dying everything pink when I wash my hair) and the usual drama at work.
I am in dire need of a holiday and a visit to the gym right now to run my rage off!
Monday, 18 April 2011
Gym.
Well after my lovely little depressing outburst last month, I finally decided to get off my ass and do something new and productive.
So boyfriend and I joined a gym!
The gym group has recently opened up in Bristol, right next to where I used to work last year, would have been so much more useful to have had it then mind!
But they have gyms throughout the UK and the ethos is cheap, no contract, 24/7 and no frills.
Obviously they market that a lot better than I do, but in essence its clean, good range of equipment and I can turn up wherever, as much as I want for £15.99.
So far we have only managed to go twice, but that is down to work being hectic, not all just laziness!
Hopefully going to go and run off my anxiety tonight or maybe tomorrow dependent on the state of the boyfriends back which was not very good last night....!
In other news, major shake ups in work around the region and it makes me rather uneasy, but there is little that I can do about that, just ride it out and see what happens really.
But at least my Dad is home from Australia now, means I can ring him up and have a good old bitch on demand! x
So boyfriend and I joined a gym!
The gym group has recently opened up in Bristol, right next to where I used to work last year, would have been so much more useful to have had it then mind!
But they have gyms throughout the UK and the ethos is cheap, no contract, 24/7 and no frills.
Obviously they market that a lot better than I do, but in essence its clean, good range of equipment and I can turn up wherever, as much as I want for £15.99.
So far we have only managed to go twice, but that is down to work being hectic, not all just laziness!
Hopefully going to go and run off my anxiety tonight or maybe tomorrow dependent on the state of the boyfriends back which was not very good last night....!
In other news, major shake ups in work around the region and it makes me rather uneasy, but there is little that I can do about that, just ride it out and see what happens really.
But at least my Dad is home from Australia now, means I can ring him up and have a good old bitch on demand! x
Wednesday, 23 March 2011
Enough is enough.
After another very testing day in work (I lost again) I got home and cried.
and cried.
and cried.
I realise that it is about time I accepted that I am not normal and I haven't been for some time.
I seem to be constantly worrying and stressing out about everything, want to sleep as much as possible and given half a chance will spend an entire day in bed napping after an entire nights sleep.
I have no tolerance for people, I seem to get snappy & nasty for no reason.
Headaches most likely from stress
Very forgetful, I actually had to write a list of everything so I didn't forget anything, I will leave work and spend all night panicking because I can't remember if I have locked the shop, activated alarms etc.
Nice little negative thoughts, some days I do feel it would be so much easier if I didn't wake up.
Everything seems like a massive battle and I can't deal with it.
I will scratch at my arms to try and make myself calm down because I am so quick to anger, yet hate conflict so will do anything to try and avoid arguments in work.
Along with all that, I feel everyone is against me, I get nice eye twitching randomly and hate being along, very clingy and very easy to tears.
Basically I am a bit screwed, there will be more random stuff than this, but I won't remember it till later on. Fed up of feeling down and like crap all the time.
I don't know if work seems worse because of all this, or if its work that has exacerbated it, but currently thinking the latter. For the last month or so I have been dying to just walk out of there and not go back, its certain people that make me feel a hundred times worse.
I have never been an overly happy person, but it isn't healthy feeling like this.
I just need some help.
and cried.
and cried.
I realise that it is about time I accepted that I am not normal and I haven't been for some time.
I seem to be constantly worrying and stressing out about everything, want to sleep as much as possible and given half a chance will spend an entire day in bed napping after an entire nights sleep.
I have no tolerance for people, I seem to get snappy & nasty for no reason.
Headaches most likely from stress
Very forgetful, I actually had to write a list of everything so I didn't forget anything, I will leave work and spend all night panicking because I can't remember if I have locked the shop, activated alarms etc.
Nice little negative thoughts, some days I do feel it would be so much easier if I didn't wake up.
Everything seems like a massive battle and I can't deal with it.
I will scratch at my arms to try and make myself calm down because I am so quick to anger, yet hate conflict so will do anything to try and avoid arguments in work.
Along with all that, I feel everyone is against me, I get nice eye twitching randomly and hate being along, very clingy and very easy to tears.
Basically I am a bit screwed, there will be more random stuff than this, but I won't remember it till later on. Fed up of feeling down and like crap all the time.
I don't know if work seems worse because of all this, or if its work that has exacerbated it, but currently thinking the latter. For the last month or so I have been dying to just walk out of there and not go back, its certain people that make me feel a hundred times worse.
I have never been an overly happy person, but it isn't healthy feeling like this.
I just need some help.
Sunday, 20 March 2011
Flamingo love
I saw this on the Daily Mail website a few days ago, and I felt so sorry for the poor thing!
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1367595/Its-easy-stand-leg-Clumsy-flamingo-takes-undignified-tumble-wades-pool.html
Not a long article, theres a few pictures.
STAY STRONG MY FLAMINGO FRIEND!
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-1367595/Its-easy-stand-leg-Clumsy-flamingo-takes-undignified-tumble-wades-pool.html
Not a long article, theres a few pictures.
STAY STRONG MY FLAMINGO FRIEND!
Work work work work work & a week off.
Feeling rather refreshed by my week off spent back in Wales.
Was really strange being in the house without my Dad, as he is currently in Australia (and hopefully stealing me a Koala!) but he is having an amazing time out there.
He is currently spending a month going around visiting pretty much everywhere out there but is sadly spending his 50th out there.
I am sure he is loving the idea of a sunny birthday, but I found it a little disappointing that I couldn't be there to harass him for being old and the like.
I still had a lovely time with the boyfriend & visiting my sister & Brother in law, Grandparents, little Welsh Nanny & the hospital known as my Mum's house (they were all suffering from one bug or another while we were down!)
While I was home, my Grandpa's older brother was taken ill, which meant my time with Grandpa was cut a little shorter than expected, but at least I saw him!
My week off also saw me reunited with two of my most favourite people ever, Hayley who I used to work with back in the day & Cassie who I have known since my drunk rampaging days who also does a beautiful job cutting hair.
While off out in Cardiff with Hayley, we managed to visit the cupcake shop which had some crazy bitch smashing the place up and attacking people over a lack of a certain cupcake a few weeks ago and I managed to buy lime green Dr Martens which were accessorized with purple laces! So ridiculous, but me in a nutshell!
A day after buying my DM's, I discovered my big little sister who is in Comprehensive school had made jewellery to sell for red nose day. One of the pieces she hadn't sold was this bright green & purple chunky bracelet which is a perfect match for my boots!
Needless to say, I had to have it. Will take a photo of both bracelet and boots when I can be bothered!
Work has been the usual, ups and downs for me, staff having issues with me and claiming I am bitchy along with everything else.
Pot calling the kettle black a bit, but I suppose that is the downside of working with all girls I suppose!
After leaving work last friday before going off for the week, I left the shop not wanting to ever step foot in there again, but over the week I realised that if anyone has a problem, then they can deal with it, I really do not care anymore.
If a new position comes up anywhere, then I will probably go for it, but for now I need to just keep my head down and ignore everyone to try and get through it.
Not much else has happened in my little world, if it had then I think my head may have exploded.
Was really strange being in the house without my Dad, as he is currently in Australia (and hopefully stealing me a Koala!) but he is having an amazing time out there.
He is currently spending a month going around visiting pretty much everywhere out there but is sadly spending his 50th out there.
I am sure he is loving the idea of a sunny birthday, but I found it a little disappointing that I couldn't be there to harass him for being old and the like.
I still had a lovely time with the boyfriend & visiting my sister & Brother in law, Grandparents, little Welsh Nanny & the hospital known as my Mum's house (they were all suffering from one bug or another while we were down!)
While I was home, my Grandpa's older brother was taken ill, which meant my time with Grandpa was cut a little shorter than expected, but at least I saw him!
My week off also saw me reunited with two of my most favourite people ever, Hayley who I used to work with back in the day & Cassie who I have known since my drunk rampaging days who also does a beautiful job cutting hair.
While off out in Cardiff with Hayley, we managed to visit the cupcake shop which had some crazy bitch smashing the place up and attacking people over a lack of a certain cupcake a few weeks ago and I managed to buy lime green Dr Martens which were accessorized with purple laces! So ridiculous, but me in a nutshell!
A day after buying my DM's, I discovered my big little sister who is in Comprehensive school had made jewellery to sell for red nose day. One of the pieces she hadn't sold was this bright green & purple chunky bracelet which is a perfect match for my boots!
Needless to say, I had to have it. Will take a photo of both bracelet and boots when I can be bothered!
Work has been the usual, ups and downs for me, staff having issues with me and claiming I am bitchy along with everything else.
Pot calling the kettle black a bit, but I suppose that is the downside of working with all girls I suppose!
After leaving work last friday before going off for the week, I left the shop not wanting to ever step foot in there again, but over the week I realised that if anyone has a problem, then they can deal with it, I really do not care anymore.
If a new position comes up anywhere, then I will probably go for it, but for now I need to just keep my head down and ignore everyone to try and get through it.
Not much else has happened in my little world, if it had then I think my head may have exploded.
Wednesday, 9 February 2011
Yesterdays drama.
For once I seem to actually have something to complain about.
Yesterday I woke up to a peculiar message on my facebook account effectively claiming my boyfriend of 5 yrs to be chasing after some blokes girlfriend.
First thing in the morning after a terrible nights sleep is NOT the best time to piss me off, especially when I am about to go to work.
As any person with a heartbeat would, I went absolutely mental about the message and confronted a very half asleep Rob, who denied the claim completely.
Work came and went, so I came back home to another message from this psycho trying to convince me that Rob is the biggest sex crazed fiend in the world and that it wasn't just a case of harassing his girlfriend on facebook, he was apparently doing this to several other women.
These other women being solely in his psychotic head.
Anyone who actually knows my boyfriend, knows that he bends over backwards for me, and knows that he is an honest, decent and very loyal guy.
A point to note, is that this bloke hadn't added me or Rob, has never met either of us, and yet felt the need to judge my boyfriend without ever meeting him, and without having a shred of evidence other than his paranoia over Rob commenting on the girlfriends facebook account 3 or 4 times in the last 2 months and the girlfriend even inviting Rob to her birthday event.
Call me crazy, but if you believe someone is harassing you, you don't then go and invite them to a fucking birthday celebration.
Messages went back and forth between myself and this idiot, with me getting more and more pissed off at him trying to go and wreck a relationship for no reason whatsoever.
He also made a huge effort of trying to convince me that his girlfriend was Rob's type as in his words 'she is beautiful and likes listening to metal'.
Obviously despite never meeting Rob, he felt he was in a perfect position to try and convince me what makes the perfect type of women for my boyfriend.
After seeing photos of this girl, beautiful is as far away from the truth as possible.
In fact she reminds me of this:
Actually, scene wolf is too good for that skank.
He also didn't appreciate me telling him that if she was being harassed, then she would be a big girl and go and click that nice little unfriend button, rather than bitch and whine and get her 'big bad boyfriend' to go and harass me instead.
The worst part of all of this, was that he made me doubt my boyfriend first thing yesterday morning. By the afternoon, I realised that he is an overbearing paranoid aggressive bastard who is in dire need of therapy.
Rob sadly has to work with this stupid bitch, which really does annoy me.
I have no idea if she was the one who claimed she was being harassed, or if her boyfriend imagined it, but I want her as far away from him as possible.
All I know, is that her and her boyfriend deserve each other.
Yesterday I woke up to a peculiar message on my facebook account effectively claiming my boyfriend of 5 yrs to be chasing after some blokes girlfriend.
First thing in the morning after a terrible nights sleep is NOT the best time to piss me off, especially when I am about to go to work.
As any person with a heartbeat would, I went absolutely mental about the message and confronted a very half asleep Rob, who denied the claim completely.
Work came and went, so I came back home to another message from this psycho trying to convince me that Rob is the biggest sex crazed fiend in the world and that it wasn't just a case of harassing his girlfriend on facebook, he was apparently doing this to several other women.
These other women being solely in his psychotic head.
Anyone who actually knows my boyfriend, knows that he bends over backwards for me, and knows that he is an honest, decent and very loyal guy.
A point to note, is that this bloke hadn't added me or Rob, has never met either of us, and yet felt the need to judge my boyfriend without ever meeting him, and without having a shred of evidence other than his paranoia over Rob commenting on the girlfriends facebook account 3 or 4 times in the last 2 months and the girlfriend even inviting Rob to her birthday event.
Call me crazy, but if you believe someone is harassing you, you don't then go and invite them to a fucking birthday celebration.
Messages went back and forth between myself and this idiot, with me getting more and more pissed off at him trying to go and wreck a relationship for no reason whatsoever.
He also made a huge effort of trying to convince me that his girlfriend was Rob's type as in his words 'she is beautiful and likes listening to metal'.
Obviously despite never meeting Rob, he felt he was in a perfect position to try and convince me what makes the perfect type of women for my boyfriend.
After seeing photos of this girl, beautiful is as far away from the truth as possible.
In fact she reminds me of this:
Actually, scene wolf is too good for that skank.He also didn't appreciate me telling him that if she was being harassed, then she would be a big girl and go and click that nice little unfriend button, rather than bitch and whine and get her 'big bad boyfriend' to go and harass me instead.
The worst part of all of this, was that he made me doubt my boyfriend first thing yesterday morning. By the afternoon, I realised that he is an overbearing paranoid aggressive bastard who is in dire need of therapy.
Rob sadly has to work with this stupid bitch, which really does annoy me.
I have no idea if she was the one who claimed she was being harassed, or if her boyfriend imagined it, but I want her as far away from him as possible.
All I know, is that her and her boyfriend deserve each other.
