Random photos

I took both of these using my blackberry, so quality surprised me!
First picture was taken last night when we had to make a detour on the drive back to Wales to get petrol about 4p cheaper than normal. Double rainbow ohhmeegod in the words of Rob.
Funnily enough, as we went around a corner, we could see the entire rainbow but the photo didn't come out well. Further along the end of the rainbow was actually the mcdonalds arches!
Again though the photo didn't come out, which is a shame as it was pretty damn funny.
Turns out it was the nicest mcds I have ever had too!


This photo was taken about half an hour ago when we were returning from food shopping.
My Dad's garden is a bit wild, but obviously the butterflies appreciate it as they are in abundance at the moment. This just looked pretty though!

Wales :D

Well finally after what seemed to be the never ending week, I finally ended up back in Wales where I belong.
Taking the next week off work to come and spend some time with my family and also celebrate my birthday which is next friday.
Hopefully my Nan will be out of hospital by then (again for the billionth time) but only time will tell.
Aiming to go and visit her tomorrow evening, although the timing and location of the hospital means it will most likely be filled with drunk chavs who have been glassing each other up in the pubs but that is one of the highlights of that town!

It is just going to be so good to be home, relax in my OWN bed, which has been proven to be the most comfy ever, spend some quality time with family which doesn't happen when only down for a weekend flying visit and just relax with my Daddy.

Speaking of Dad, I am sure by the end of the week I will be tearing my hair out with his whistling (I do not let the boyfriend do that, I hate it) and his singing at all hours of the day.
At least him harassing me for birthday present ideas will only last a few more days ;)

Really wish I had packed my camera charger now though so I can get some decent photos of the family while I am here. Haven't had any of me with family for a while :(

Spree.

After all the lusting and getting approval on the dream boots I mentioned in the last post, I decided after work yesterday I would go and try the beauties on so I knew what size I would need to get when I got paid.

All was not meant to be though.
After having another frankly awful shift and feeling really low about everything (not exactly a rare occurrence in my life) I felt I really did need to have a bit of a splurge with my non existent funds.
Seeing as I needed to replace the new jeans which exploded at the knee, or as the security guard kept telling me 'your knee is smiling at me' to which I replied, well its the only part of me which does smile here!
So I grabbed pretty much every pair of denim I could find in the shop currently and a few tops I had been looking at throughout the week, I headed off with an overflowing basket to the fitting rooms.
I was definitely over the garment restriction when I went in, but conveniently I am very much a resident in the fitting rooms prior to my shifts, I headed on in with the fitting room girls waiting for the mini zilla fashion show.

Firstly, to get the boots out of the way.
I was really upset to put the highly coverted clompy boots on and find the ankle on them is very baggy and my foot just flopped around like a fish, I am well aware that my feet are a ridiculous fit, ranging from a 5 to a 7 in different styles, however there was no way my feet were going to fit in the size below.
The disappointment however was not all bad, as the cheaper alternative I had picked up to try on (£25 on the label, scanned at £26.99 as I noticed when I got home, tut tut!) fitted like a dream. Just to flump my efforts though, the colour I bought has now disappeared from the website, so below is the brown version. I bought the faded black so more bluey grey in places. (Basically a few shades darker than the boots I posted yesterday.)

After finding the brown version to post, I am actually really tempted to swap my colour for the ones above. The brown just looks rather tasty now!

Next to try on were the several hundred pairs of assorted denim shorts/jeans/skirts.
In my typical fashion (read actually just misshaped body) only 1 pair made the final cut.
Even though I had a variety of size 8 & 10's as I seem to be an annoying size 9, only 1 thing vaguely fitted me - a pair of black denim high waisted shorts.
I had these in a 10 in the cubicle with me as there were NO size 8's to be found on the shop floor, but one of the stars I work with spotted an 8 on the fitting room rails of clothes to be taken back out to the shop floor.
No idea if these even suit me, or if I will even wear them, but the idea of owning a pair seemed to gel well with me.Also no photo of these on the website, so when I can be bothered to try them on again, I will take a photo and post up on here!

After finding a pair of denim shorts to replace the broken jeans of yesterday with, I then thought I should try on a cute little playsuit I had seen on the shop floor.
WHY DID I EVEN BOTHER?!
The size 8 wouldn't go up above my bum, but the 10 looked like a bin bag on me. Easily the most unflattering garment I have EVER tried on. Nicer on the hanger easily, and at £25 a bit of a joke to be honest.
So on to the tops.
Out of every top I picked out, only 1 didn't look right on me, which frankly is a miracle as I cannot shop for my body shape at all. Gok Wan would probably have a stroke if he saw the crap I wore some days.
I ended up buying a very long top which when put on straight pretty much goes to my knees, so some artful pulling up and readjusting, looked a rather lovely top! Again no photo online, but its a chocolate/mocha coloured jersey top, with a slight cowl neck and an eerie massive tree print on the front. Honestly a lot nicer in real life, I am just crap at describing things.
Another top, with is a white burnout top, slight bubble hem at the bottom, but very tempted to go a bit scissor happy, remove it and re-hem. But the burnout instead of being random streaks, looks like that really posh print you get on fancy wallpaper, has a bit of an angel sleeve detail going on as well, but another failure by the website in lacking a photo. Seriously not much luck with the photos this time around!
To go with the above top, a draped chocolate coloured jersey waistcoat, really long with big pockets down the bottom, for this one I do have a photo, but it isn't a brilliant photo, a lot nicer in the flesh again, so a photo of me wearing it shall be appearing soon :)


To round off my little shopping trip, I wanted to get some thick socks in cream or grey to have under the new boots and peeking out over the top.
I couldn't for the life of me find the ones I wanted, so decided to settle with the tights version.
As I left the shop with my giant bag of goodies, I saw the bloody socks I wanted.
Being as it was well past 3pm, & that I had finished work at 1.30, I thought meh and left with the tights.
I got home and realised the tights weren't the right colour to match the boots, who would have thought cream bloody tights to match black/grey boots wouldn't have gone at all? Wrong shade of cream apparently.

So another session is due for me on Monday, to potentially swap colour boots, and get those stupid socks. URGH.

Still no news from my Nan, so I guess she is still back in hospital.
Just counting down the days till I get to go home :)

I am truly awful

The boyfriend reminded me that I seem to mention in every post that I am sorry I haven't updated much and that I will do more in future and be a better blogger. He is right though, I say it all the time and it never happens.

It always seems like there is too much going on to put aside 5 minutes and just write down what is going on in my crazy little life and my messed up head.

Well.

Today in work we had a big important visit from our regional manager person and his boss and loads of store managers from other nice big shiny stores in the region.
So we all made an effort to dress in nice current uniform, look lovely blah blah blah.

So I wore my nice new blue skinny jeans, only worn once before.
By 11am I had a tiny hole appear in one knee, luckily I was in the fitting rooms so I didn't have to worry about the important men coming in and seeing the state of me.
So around 11.30 I got moved to tidy the greeting zone of the store, fair enough, the hole was tiny and unnoticeable really.
So I bent down to pick up a scrap of paper off the floor (so we didn't get a lawsuit from someone slipping on it) and I heard the tell tale creak of the hole widening.

Imagine my shock when I look down and the knee now has a hole from seam to seam.
Of all the days to have it happen, its on a big important day.
Luckily I am adept at hiding from big important people that may query me on how much the store has taken so far during the week and how much above or below target we were.

That was todays main little highlight, yesterday however was a bit more serious than a hole in the knee.

I had a text from my Mum telling me that my Nan, who has been ill for a few months had been readmitted into hospital with kidney problems and pneumonia (for the billionth time). She is in and out of that hospital like a yo-yo the last few months and it is even more stressful thinking that it has been 11 months today since her son died in hospital.

I feel a bit torn, I would rather her be in hospital as she has been having some rather worrying 'turns' during the last week or so where she completely zones out and just doesn't seem to be all there, but I know how much she despises hospitals, and well her being in hospital shows she is seriously ill.

However, I do feel rather blessed that I have several people on ye olde trusty twitter who have been there for me to rant to, been there to comfort me and just basically show i'm not on my own struggling with life at the moment.
Makes life feel a little easier knowing there are people that care.


On a happier note though, a lovely friend should be up in my neck of the woods next month, so will be lovely to finally meet her :D

Also, I am currently eyeing up these boots. I LOVE stompy boots, so I must have these!

Stuck.

I seem to be at a standstill at the moment with where I want to go in life.
Last week I was asked to work extra hours to cover a floor move, which at first seemed to be alright.
Typical zilla style I found out that I wouldn't actually be allowed to do any merchandising (back to the whole I need to be trained first pain in the ass) yet when I was in Majorca they trained a few members of staff who don't work in a role that needs them to merchandise.
So imagine my annoyance to find they had said people doing merchandising and just shoving me off to do pointless crap that I can't do properly as I haven't been trained to put new clothes out.

Back to the whole why do I even fucking bother line of thinking again.
For the next fortnight I was asked to work full shifts to cover one of the team who is off on holiday, I told them its pointless as I haven't been trained to do her job!
So one of the newly trained is doing copious amounts of overtime instead and I get a few extra hours here and there.

Seriously would love a new job right now, not one that makes me feel like a pointless piece of shit as my current one does.

General life is equally as shit and annoying, the only good thing to have happened is for my Nan to have escaped hospital and be back home again.

Relationship seems to be a complete waste of time, I can't stand anyone right now & I may as well just go runaway and never been heard from again.
Why am I even alive?